Sleep, sleep, sleep...that's all I seem to want to do. *Yaaawwwn* I woke up early since Sasha was doing her high-pitched, LET ME OUT OF THIS KENNEL NOW yipping and barking. Drives me nuts. Rachel, Deacon and I got ready for church and arrived forty-five minutes late and sat out in the foyer. We can tell Deacon's feeling a ton better, because he's back to his demon-child self. I was able to sketch a few things during church, glad that I was getting my drawing inspiration back. People get a kick out of Rachel and I and how we interact. We can keep each other cheered up, at least! We both fell asleep during church...whoops.
When we came back, we let the dogs out, then back in, then took a nap. I don't know about Rachel, but I slept for a good four hours and could have kept sleeping, but then I wouldn't sleep later tonight.
Mood wise, I'd say I've been okay. Not as extremely mellow, like the first three days! A bit of a headache...very tired....that's about it. Tomorrow we'll see how traveling goes.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Day 4
Since I stayed in the house and took care of Rachel's sick kid today, I had less of a chance to embarrass myself in front of anyone else. Rachel left early, and I had to be up early to to make sure I knew what to do with medicines and such. When all three dogs were settled down and the likes, Deacon laid down with the mini DVD player in his bed and I went back and crashed...
...to wake up two to three hours later to have Deacon standing by my bed, going,"I feel better! I threw up!" He didn't really...just more or less hacked up congested mucus on his mother's pillow. So I cleaned that up, got him comfortable with a drink and another movie. After that, things are kinda blurry for me. Got online to do some stuff...oh yeah, I had a season two marathon of House since it was the only thing I could really concentrate on. Which I guess I didn't, because I can't remember much of what I watched. Aah well. Took care of the dogs, played with the puppy, got amused when Sunny wiggled out of his collar twice and ran off, only to come back instead of taking advantage of his freedom. Silly dog.
My mood today has been...more or less testy. It's hard to describe. It still stands that I can't read my book because I forget what I had just read and have to start the paragraph over. It's very disheartening, but I know it'll get better in time. I actually found myself a bit depressed. I couldn't focus on drawing, watching anything more,reading...so I plopped on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Then when Rachel got home and we did the rounds with all the dogs, we watched Inkheart. Great show.
Had a headache today...but it was probably from the TV. I felt throw-up ill and nearly did, then realized that I shouldn't be taking certain things while on celexa (or whatever) for my headaches. Soooo I do need to be more careful, obviously. I had one 'blank' period of time today where I could not, for the life of me, remember what I had just been doing before. I'm very spacey today...very annoying. But we'll see what happens next!
...to wake up two to three hours later to have Deacon standing by my bed, going,"I feel better! I threw up!" He didn't really...just more or less hacked up congested mucus on his mother's pillow. So I cleaned that up, got him comfortable with a drink and another movie. After that, things are kinda blurry for me. Got online to do some stuff...oh yeah, I had a season two marathon of House since it was the only thing I could really concentrate on. Which I guess I didn't, because I can't remember much of what I watched. Aah well. Took care of the dogs, played with the puppy, got amused when Sunny wiggled out of his collar twice and ran off, only to come back instead of taking advantage of his freedom. Silly dog.
My mood today has been...more or less testy. It's hard to describe. It still stands that I can't read my book because I forget what I had just read and have to start the paragraph over. It's very disheartening, but I know it'll get better in time. I actually found myself a bit depressed. I couldn't focus on drawing, watching anything more,reading...so I plopped on my bed and stared at the ceiling. Then when Rachel got home and we did the rounds with all the dogs, we watched Inkheart. Great show.
Had a headache today...but it was probably from the TV. I felt throw-up ill and nearly did, then realized that I shouldn't be taking certain things while on celexa (or whatever) for my headaches. Soooo I do need to be more careful, obviously. I had one 'blank' period of time today where I could not, for the life of me, remember what I had just been doing before. I'm very spacey today...very annoying. But we'll see what happens next!
Friday, March 18, 2011
Day 3
Whoops, missed the first two days! Aah well. I've started many a blog before, but I'm determined to log my progress, or my further decline into whatever is doing all this to me. Cheers! Anyhow, this is my first time on an anti-depressant. My doctor is certain this is the first piece of the puzzle to make everything else righten. So, let's sum up the last few days:
---Continued headaches
---Improved moods (ton more mellow)
---Spacey-ness has gotten worse
---Memory continues to hate me
---Appetite varies
---Still can't read much without having to re-read several times
---Concentration is very lax (it's taken forever to just type this much)
Today was interesting. I woke up to find out I had put on two pairs of pajama pants...apparently I hadn't realized I had put the first on before the second. Then I managed to put my pants on inside out. And while trying to sign up for food stamps today, I fudged up giving them my SS number and didn't realize the first three numbers were wrong. When another lady asked for my SS number a second time, I managed to write out my cell number and hand it over. Haha. I went back to the SS office, and while presenting my problem an writing out the number, the woman helping me gave me a sympathetic look and said, "Megan, honey...that's not your number." Then I realized that I had tried to merge numbers from my cell with the SS. I tell ya, my mind...it's fun to look back and laugh at though.
Hopefully things will improve! See ya next post.
~~ Heart (heart-felt.deviantART.com)
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I've decided to start this blog for several reasons. One, it will serve as my Written Memory since my mental one is not...so great. Two, it will do good to have certain things blogged. Three...I get to type-talk to myself. Who doesn't like that? Anyhow, to any that even stumble upon this...hiya, and welcome to my crazy world.
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